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A New Beginning…..

As the year 2013 came to an end I was SOOOO looking forward to a fresh start to 2014. It was going to be a new beginning for me in many ways. I had a new job and I had health insurance for the first time in 6 years. AND…..most importantly, by the grace of God, I freed myself from a very unhealthy relationship that I had allowed myself to become involved in. That relationship cost me dearly in so many ways. I lost the respect and trust of so many people in my life that were WAY more important to me than the person that I had allowed into my life!! Thankfully, I can testify that I survived that very bad relationship and have begun the process of healing some of the relationships that were effected by my bad choices and actions. I also found the courage to press charges against this person for the things that he chose to do after the relationship ended and he is now looking at 2-20 years in prison.  Yep, he picked the wrong person to try to control and manipulate!

My excitement for a new beginning to 2014 took a shocking turn in February. I went in for my yearly mammogram and check up on February 11th. My main concern when I went in was for the lumps that were found in my right breast exactly one year earlier. Thankfully, those were found to only be dense fibrosis. I felt like one of them had grown in size and just wanted to make sure everything was still okay. Fortunately for me a lump was found on my left breast so they took me down the hall to have a sonogram done to get a better look at the suspicious lump. Now you are probably wondering why I said “fortunately”  instead of “unfortunately”, just let me explain. The lump that was found I did not feel nor did the doctor…..that is why i say “fortunately”. While on the table during the sonogram I was not informed about the new lump. I just thought it was to have a better look at the right side, which is what had been done in my follow up visits the year before. 

I was not concerned until the tech told me she was going down the hall to get the doctor because she thought he would want to have a look at the sonogram himself. Before she left the room there was an area on my left breast that she just kept going over and over and really seemed to focusing a lot of time on. She returns a few minutes later with the doctor and again they begin focusing a lot of time on my left breast. 

After a few minutes the doctor says to me that he would like to schedule me for a biopsy on my left breast. He said there is a suspicious lump that needs to be tested and it looks completely different than the lump found in my right breast the year before. So, I get dressed and go down the hall to schedule my biopsy. The nice lady that scheduled my biopsy said they could get me in on February 13th! REALLY…….that’s my birthday and that was the last thing that I wanted to do on my birthday but I went ahead and made the appointment anyway. As it turns out, that was the BEST gift I could have given myself. The results came back…..invasive ductile carcinoma, stage 2!!!!!!!!! SERIOUSLY…….I was numb and shocked to say the least!!! Breast cancer doesn’t run in my family, at least to my knowledge anyway.

As it would turn out, my cancer was caught very early, therefore making it the BEST gift I could have ever thought to give myself. I had surgery on March 3rd to remove the tumor. That was followed with 8 treatments of radiation……yes you heard right…..ONLY 8 TREATMENTS!!! I  AM  SO  BLESSED!!!!!!!!!!! GOD IS SO GOOD!!!!!!! The next course of action will be medication for 5 years and closely monitored for several years to come which I will GLADLY accept!!

Life for me has changed drastically in ways I never could have imagined. Throughout this process I have learned so much about myself. Lessons learned from the experience of a really bad relationship choice, some from the counseling I am currently in because of that bad choice, and some from this amazing journey with my breast cancer which I lovingly refer to as my “blessing in disguise”. What a journey all of this has been for me. I never would have thought that at the age of 52 (yes I’m not ashamed to tell my age) I would be learning so many important lessons. Just proves that the statement “your never too old to learn something new” really is true. 

The most important lesson learned and truly worth drawing attention to: LIFE IS PRECIOUS AND CAN CHANGE IN THE BLINK OF AN EYE. SPEND AS MUCH TIME AS POSSIBLE WITH THE ONES YOU LOVE. TELL THEM EVERY CHANCE YOU GET HOW MUCH YOU LOVE THEM AND HOW MUCH THEY MEAN TO YOU. TOMORROW IS NOT PROMISED TO ANY OF US SO CHERISH EVERY DAY AS IF IT WERE YOUR LAST…..

 

 

 

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